Russell / mom

April 29th 2011

Yesterday my son Gregg called me to let me know my mother passed away.
I then had to let my brothers and sister know for we were not allowed to know
that she died until her daughter Janice buried her. She passed away on Easter,
So do I cry, do I put all my feelings on the side, I don't know, for all I can say
is I am just numb. I wish I could have said I had a wonderful loving memories with my mom but I just can't. Last year or so she said she wanted nothing to do with me and never wanted to see me here on this earth as well as in the after life.
So I guess I looked as her as she died back then. I hope that she knows now all the truth and knows she was wrong to treat her 8 out of 9 children wrong.
Rest in peace mom, and know this no matter what I still loved you even when you did not me.
Today is also my Russell's death anniversary of 15 years, I guess my thoughts
are on him today as he deserve to have this day to be remembered, I miss you Russ and I know that you are watching over us we do feel your spirit all the time.
I wonder how much longer till we meet again. Gregg is graduating this coming week , and he is out looking for a job please be with him, and comfort him.
Chris is doing wonderful and seems to be very happy and that is what we wanted for our boys right.

dr.appointment results not good

up date on sam needs to see his cardiologist and to have stress test and echo cardiogram done, still needs to have a upper gi done and other test to see where he is bleeding at. he will go back in 20 days for more blood work. my dr. had told me my blood work was real high and heading for a major heart attack and or stroke. changed my medication and said my migraine is due to high blood pressure. changed my bp medication to help with my headache as well. also told me to lower my stress as if that will ever happen lol.